After returning to SA, events unfolded that motivated me to step back from church ministry.  Feeling I could not handle people’s expectations I grew bitter towards the church and resigned. Guilt that I had failed God consumed me.

An opportunity arose to start a business in the coffee industry. Although I felt my calling was not in business, I promised to use the profit gained to further God’s mission and utilize it for His kingdom.

Having unresolved issues and not being able to forgive myself or others, I turned to the comforts of the world of delusions and got swept up by a whirlwind of success, entertainment, and fleeting happiness…